| The Fear |
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By the age of 24 I had cellulite everywhere and, I was weighing the most I ever had. I was unhappy and so sick of looking for the answer. At this point I was definitely not ready for the news of my first pregnancy. Instantly, I got really scared. What am I going to do? I will be fat the rest of my life. I had seen it and heard it over and over. "Once you have a baby you will never be the same you will always have a pooch and your hips don’t go back." So, what did I do? I gained 10 pounds in the first 2 months of my pregnancy. Wow! Now I was even more worried. So, I tried my hardest to do what was becoming very popular at that time. Workout while I was pregnant. I constantly failed at this endeavor. I really wanted to, but I was tired and sick. The pressure I put on myself to have a fit pregnancy stressed me out and I felt like a failure!
Then in my second trimester I did get some energy and was able to go to the gym again. I had lost a lot of strength and conditioning. I also had no clue what I should do or safely could do? Working out was a huge mental challenge. Doing cardio seemed futile. It was supposed to make you loose weight and feel energized, but all it did during my pregnancy was make my stomach get bigger and used up the little extra energy I had. Despite it all I did managed to workout consistently for 5 weeks until my belly got in the way and then I dropped out. I was a fit pregnancy failure again! " |




