Then after my run one day I was horribly nauseous. I thought, "Yuck what did I eat?" Nothing bad, I was just pregnant!!! WOW and OOPS. With a colicky baby who was only 6 months old and my 3 year old son, how was I going to handle this? I was so very sick and tired. I could hardly get out of bed to take care of my 2 kids much less worry about exercising. Then at 7 weeks I had an ultrasound and everything was fine except – surprise TWINS! Man I was a "fertile myrtle"!!! The doctor explained that that is why I was so sick and to be prepared for a much harder pregnancy with twins. I had no idea what lay ahead. I truly believe that twin pregnancies are at least 4x’s harder than normal ones. I couldn’t believe how much more physically and mentally traumatic being pregnant with twins was!

I was a wreck. No way in the world could I workout. I had to save any ounce of energy I had to focus on my other 2 kids and trying to gain 45 pounds. My belly exploded in size and I kept trying to tell myself that it would be Okay. The agony I went through in my mind about what my body would look like post-twin pregnancy was very defeating. I had survived 2 normal pregnancies with few war wounds, but this one was different. I wouldn’t leave it untarnished, and I could become a big puddle of fat. I was so sad.

After months of sickness, daily naps, eating everything in sight, no exercise and felling like I was going to explode, I got the pleasure of spending about 3 weeks in the hospital hooked up to every machine and IV they had in order to keep my baby girls in my tummy as long as possible. The drugs they use to stop labor are horrible! They make you very sick, unable to eat and turn any muscle on your body to fat. Finally at 34 weeks my uterus couldn’t take it anymore, and I had my twins by C-section. They were only 4 pounds and had to be in the intensive care nursery for an agonizing month. I then nursed them for 3 months and didn’t go anywhere until they were about 5 months old. (I couldn't go anywhere, I hadn't had a car since my first child was born just so I could be a true "stay at home mom", Ha, Ha!)

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